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Encouragement

The most comforting words for me in this hard time come straight from God Himself, from the Bible. There are hundreds of Bible verses that speak of sorrow, joy in sorrow, hope, etc, and different verses stand out to us in different times in life...these are some of the ones that the Lord is using to minister to me specifically in this season.

Psalm 34
The band Sons of Korah has put this one to music, and I listen to it & sing it over & over, allowing the words to penetrate my heart and thoughts.
The Psalm begins with,
"I will bless God the Lord at all times." All times, even in this time.
"His praises will be on my lips." God is worthy of praise at all times, whether life is easy or hard. And it is good, in a healing way, to choose to sing praises to the Lord amidst days of sorrow. It reminds me that God is way bigger than my present circumstances.

Romans 8:28
"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." I love the Lord God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength, and I know that He is good, that He loves me, and that He is working this together for good. I know it, even if I don't always feel it. 

Luke 1:38
Mary was called upon by the Lord to carry God Incarnate, Jesus the Christ, in her womb. She would have to suffer much shame from others as she would be pregnant but not married yet. She gladly walked the road that the Lord called her to. Her reply is my prayer: 
"Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be done to me according to your word."
This is what the Lord is calling me to right now. It is painful, and I don't understand why He things have to be this way, but I am a servant of the Lord, and I know that He is a good Lord. 

Habakkuk 3:17-19
"Though the fig tree should not blossom,
nor fruit be on the vines,
the produce of the olive fail
and the fields yield no food,
the flock be cut off from the fold
and there be no herd in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD;
I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
GOD, the Lord, is my strength"

Right now the fruit of my womb is not blossoming. There will be no baby in my crib. But I will choose to rejoice in the Lord. I still have much in this life to take joy in and be thankful for. And I have an eternity with my Savior to look forward to. God, the Lord, my Lord, is my strength.




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